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| I’ve been beaten, I’ve been abused
I’ve been cheated, and I’ve been used
They said that I’m no good
Hearts stone cold, black and blue
Reminders of the shit they put me through
Lord, its getting old
Its time to show myself the door
There’s no pretending anymore
No, it’s over
Where I’m going I don’t know
Somewhere down this dusty road
North on 441
Pass the rolling cattle fields the trailer parks, and rusted cotton mills
Lord get me out of here
I’ve made up my mind
Not giving in this time
No it’s over
Heart break runaway
I’m on a fast track toward the interstate
I’m leaving this place without a minute to waste
No looking over my shoulder
It’s over
Been in prison locked and chained
Bible beat into my brain
Said you gotta trust and obey
But I’m busted loose I’m on the run
And I’m screamin at the top of my lungs
Thank God I’m free at last
Feel like I’ve been reborn
There’s no pretending anymore
No
Daddy’s been drinking beer
Every night for 20 years
And mama just sits there on the couch
poppin’ pills to drowned her tears
And they keep doggin me,
You're not worth a damn and you're just gonna be another failure
And a jailbird like everyone in the family
So I hang out in the parking lot; I get stoned with my 2 friends
Cause they’re the ones who understand the situation that I’m in
They feel my pain and man I’m gonna miss em when I’m gone
But I’m moving on, If I don’t I’ll be dead by 21
I’ll shoot myself in the head before I wind up like my dad
Working a job I hate and taking out my anger on a kid
I can hear my mama crying as I cross that county line
Cause she knows I’m not comin back I’m leaving all this shit behind
I told her I’m a soldier I’m wiser, and I’m older
I got my education now I’m out of here it’s over
And I’m Heart break runaway
I’m on the fast track toward the interstate
I’m leaving this place without a minute to waste
No looking over my shoulder
It’s over
No goodbyes, now I’m gone
It’s all over
It's over
No goodbyes, now I’m gone
It’s all over
It's over
No goodbyes, now I’m gone
It’s all over
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| For the sake of making a statement lets make our presence known. Let's show them what were made of. We'll show up in our outfits we planned ahead to meet the qualifications for a special occasion.
You've made a lasting impression And if it doesnt feel right then I cant go wrong I've been sleeping witht he lights on So if I wake in the Night Your picture is clearly in sight.
Vindicated, I am selfish I am wrong I am right I swear I'm right Swear I knew it all along And I am flawed But I am cleaning up so well I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself.
My hopes are so high, that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer.
Blink and you miss a beat keep one of your eyes open at all times. think that your on the brink? The shit hasn't even begun to hit the fan. Consequence you'll see will be stranger than a gang of drunken mimes. Situation has a stink. Better clear the air before your son becomes a man.
The reasons that I can't stay don't have a thing to do with being in love and I understand that lovin a man shouldn't have to be this rough. You ain't the only one who feels this world left you far behind i dont know why you gotta be angry all the time.
And If this is what it takes just to lie in my mistakes and live with what i did to you and all thje things i pur you through I alway catch the clock its 11:11 and now you want to talk Its not hard to dream You'll always be my Konstantine.
So turn up the corners of your lips. Part them and feel my finger tips Trace the moment, fall forever.
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| Well...its been a long ass time since I've wrote in here. A lot has happened. Drama has happened! haha. I'm kind of sick of the drama and the guy bullshit. I liked this kid David and totally got let down by him, but now we're cool and he's still my friend :) I love that about David. So, I tried to go for other guys... Dustin...Jeremy...Yeah I definitally got taken advantage of but that was completely and totally my fault because I let him do it. I wanted him to like me and I guess that wasn't the way to get it to all work out!!! Haha. I am sorta pissed at him because he basically used me but not really all that mad at him for that. I'm upset because he's being a bitch and wont talk to me! Which is totally uncalled for because I really just wanted things to go back to normal! Soo I told myself I was gonna just stop looking for a guy to hold me and tell me everything would be okay. I did what I had planned but now that I did, its like guys like me now... Its weird. This one guy that I think I might sorta like, He's tight as hell, he just doesnt know how I feel. I think, maybe, theres a slight possibility that he might like me but im not sure because he confuses me. He flirts with me but so did all the other guys I thought liked me, and its turns out they didnt. Some guys flirt b/c they wanna be with you and some guys just flirt because your their friend. I wish he'd tell me which one is the reason he's doing it!! Guys should all tell a girl if he likes her or not instead of playing games. Games are gay! I guess I think it'd just be a hell of a lot easier and more fun if he'd just kiss me and prove that he likes me instead of playing these little kid flirting games. Too bad he's a chicken. I mean yeah he'll hold my hand which i totally give him credit for because most guys wont hold a girls hand but dude...seriously thats not gonna get a girl. Haha.. well new subject... My dads not doing so well, He's taking medication for awhile to see if it helps, if it doesnt, he has cancer. I think he has cancer, I think the doctors think he has cancer too but he's in jail so of course they treat him differently than a regular doctor would, regular doctors care, prison doctors dont give a shit. My moms a basket case, but thats normal, she's got her own house and she's working with christi, so i guess thats sayin something but she'll go to jail soon, it'll just be a matter of time before they pick her up for her warrant. My brother, i havent heard from him in awhile, i hope he's not back in jail AGAIN for the billionth time. Jerry got a car, Its a bmw. Its pretty nice. I'm supposed to be getting a car in June, Which is cool, I think its a 97 Mitsubishi Eclipse, but i dont know how much truth there is in that because I havent even seen the car but my grandparents have been talkings to the guy who owns it and i guess he is gonna sell it because he is going to a different state for residencey. Okay so now for the talk about all my wonderful friends...I miss Katie Poole like crazy. Its unfair I want her to come back to Georgia. If she came back I'd have more competition though.. haha im just kidding. :) Katie I love you!!! Melissa and I are on good terms, we actually haven't faught in awhile, I think maybe we're getting closer and I love it. Michelle and I are good too, No big problems lately! :) Audrey and I are still tight but i sorta feel like we're not hanging out as much as we use to and I miss her. It hurts to miss a person whose far away but I think it hurts more to miss the person whose right infront of you. | | |
| MICHELLE,
IF YOU ARE
READING THIS
YOUR POSSIBLY
THE MOST
RETARDED
FRICKIN
DONKEY IN THE
ENTIRE
UNIVERSE!!
GET OFF LINE AND
CALL ME YOU HOE!
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